nothing's ever clear. nothing's ever what you thought it would be, what you expected. it's wrong, not what you wished for, it's twisted... but if you're lucky.. it's just right, it's more than you could imagine, it's beautiful.for me life is like walking in the dark. but to be completely honest, this has nothing to do with me. i plan everything everyday.. im learning something, though.. it's that something has found a way to pervade my plans, my passions, my affections, my thoughts.. something has given me reason to be obsessed, to be in love, and to live.. . . He, Christ Jesus, is walking with me everyday. He's leading me by my hand in darkness i have created. i would have never planned it this way, but now it is unmistakably outside of myself a reason to give him glory for a story I could have never written.
as long as we're together
:( i had to leave wonderful charleston today. i seriously had the greatest time. this is where we rode a carriage around town. anyways, kinda crazy right now.. i have one day till i move in.. four dress to buy(yes, for rush, i have procrastinated way too much, but that's okay i love shopping).. and plenty other things i need to do. watching the bachlorette now with carrie.. roberto is hawt!!!! anyways, my verse for today was...
the heart is deceitful above all else
and beyond cure
who can understand it?
" I the Lord search the heart
and examine the mind "
Jer 17:9
this verse echoes my summer. my heart can be so easily ripped in so many directions. i find myself constantly being like is this right? is this god's will? i have to run straight to the lord's arms and his promises that he is going to satisfy me beyond everything that i see. i remind myself what the lord wants is my heart. what does that even mean? i want to forsake everything in this world to taste god's goodness.. because it is good, he's good, he's good all the time. and it's exciting because as im learning to let go, i am beginning to see his wonderful plans for me.. . this summer god's showed me that his plans go beyond me sitting on my butt in birmingham, alabama. i want to know that this lord i am following is going to take me to the ends of the earth to share his love with every nation..scary ya but awesome ya..
it's the last night with my sister, why not stay up all night and watch our favorite shows?
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